Invader-Zimie

And a lot has happen, mainly for the worst. Here's some good things: I work at my hometown Post Office I have a gaming computer and a Cintiq tablet (computer is on a payment plan for 1 year) I also have a VR headset (payment plan for 2 years) I've reconnected with my besties from school (one from elementary and the other from middle school) I'm not in as much financial straits as often as the past few years I've been losing weight because of work (i was about maybe 250lb when i made the last post. I'm now down to 202-204lbs And now a few key terrible moments Trusted a guy friend with my body who turned around and hurt me emotionally (tbh i saw the red flags but stayed bc i was hoping he was gonna be an honest man.... uh guess not) Been having a mental breakdown due to understaffing at work, being overworked, and doesn't help when there's some homelife issues that are goin out that is also causing me an intense amount of stress I have no motivation to be creative anymore , which is

its been a long time. Like I've mainly been gone from here for the most part, but not so much on tumblr and twitter. Anyways, here's a like a huuuuge update on things: -moved back to Iowa, lived with dad and stepmom -got old job back at hyvee -said job started to give me less hours (needed to be at 40, was getting less than 8 hours a week) -got a part time job at bowling alley -by march, I basically went fulltime at bowling alley, quit hyvee -by april ,almost had to get another job because hours were cut at bowling alley -by summer I was the last front desk associate (one was a no show, the other was on tour and wasnt coming back until

Ok so quite a bit happen since i last made a journal. So I'll do my best to keep it short: >I left Iowa on July 15th and arrived in Oregon on July 17th. >Had moved into new roommates place and then a week later was kicked out, but was already wanting to leave because I felt super unsafe and being used (not to mention she was stealing with a 17 year old and had expected me to be the get-away car :/) >moved in with friend and her family (friend was the same friend who had helped me get over here) >got job at a call center (apple care tech support) >quit said job after being there for over a month, due to panic attacks, as we